As the years go by after losing David, I sense resentment on the part of some at the fact that I have this deep sadness. They want me to be happy. They want me to go on as if David never existed. They want me to move away in order to get rid of the things that remind me of him. Don’t they know that I want to remember him at all times? I want to be reminded of all that we shared together. I want to memorize every detail of our past. It is so important to me. I memorized his face. His words keep ringing in my ears. I hear him talking to me. I actually do talk to him. I carry him in my heart everywhere I go.