When David died I was
full of confusion. This is what I wrote one day in my diary regarding how I
I see many paradoxes since David died.
I will always have David with me and no one can see us together. However, as I
drive, I see empty streets and empty everything. New
friends have emerged and old ones disappeared. David seems to be more alive now
than when he was physically present. I feel him and talk to him. I do the
things that I know would make him happy. I see him in nature and every where.