I still wake up every morning realizing that something is missing in my life. I wake up sad. I still cannot believe that David is gone forever. It is a nightmare. It is the biggest disaster of my life. I keep asking the question “How could this have happened to us?” I wish that I had a chance to say goodbye. Once in a while my heart skips a beat. There is a moment of fear that comes now and then. I continue to see his image in my mind. Oh how I wish that I had not lost him. I want him back so badly. I know that I cannot have him, but I continue to wish anyway.