Grief does not change anything

My advice to you is to realize that grief does not change anything. Grieving we must as love and grief are connected. It is OK to embrace life again and to go on living a fuller life that touches others and transforms their lives.

Nothing Works

The pain is still as deep and the hurt is awful. My yearning for David reaches a point of despair many times. I see him as more beautiful every day. He seems to become more and more lovely with time. His beautiful character makes me miss him even more.  I get angry at times and miss the love so much. I rationalize and nothing works.

New Awareness

I am so aware of things now that before David’s death I was not aware of them. The different clouds and hues in the sky allow me to gaze upwards for a long period longing to reach David and to touch him there. Yet, I cannot touch him. He on the other hand has touched my life and has changed it forever. I am at a stage now in my life where occasionally I do not feel the pain continuously and have a few moments of relief. At these times, I feel even guiltier and tell David that I am sorry and that I have to try to go on. I tell him that he will always be a part of me. I continue to struggle daily. I continue to function, but the zest and the spark of life is gone. The glow and the shine have become dull, but the pain lingers on.